"Because No one Else Listened Exactly Like You"

I always think that listening, discovering new music is relieving.

I don't know when this habit started, but sure it was long time ago. There were years that I decided not to update on any new music, because that was painful. Sticking to some old-old music that even now, Im still listening to. Songs to call home.

This year, I have nothing to heal myself than music. Got me a heartbreaking moment in the early year and sure my social media or the other way which could harm myself is not the answer to run away. Im tired of being publicly sad. And that is, my friend, the end of an era. I channel my emotions to music. Not by producing it, but listening.

I'm stacking my heart-broken playlist since forever and first compiled it in 2017. Who would have thought I need this the next year? The next thing I could remember is making playlists became routines until I get sensitive to it. Anyone could make playlist, anyone could listen to same certain songs, but the mimicking title, details, theme/mood, link? Oh no.

I specifically listen to music while driving (this is the best cure tbh) to keep the unnecessary thoughts away, while doing my essay which sometimes I spent the first two hours just to find the right playlist to get my brain worked until I magically finished it on September, on the days I couldn't sleep and I would listen to two albums of Stefano Torossi but still ended up sleep at 4am (which became my top 2nd artist on SpotifyWrapped 2018), when I looked for inspiration on NATIVE or when I worked on it, when I worked at cafe because they have some good-good playlists and Im loving it but still prefer to listen on my own-picked songs on the opening shift, on a road trip with family and me as a passenger, and the rest is when I'm tired with the collapsing world.

I found some best quotes on Nikicio's recent instagram post:

"Have you ever communicated in music?
Have you ever sent someone a song before?
Has someone ever sent you a song before?
If you answered yes to any of these, then we're on the same page of a beautiful book, We've learned that humans also speak in another language: music"

"..and maybe, humans are music. The way they walk. Our movements. The way our heart beats. Sometimes in sync. Sometimes in the same rhythm. Sometimes chaotically. And sometimes, at war with the mind. It is only natural that music is one of our languages, too. Humans speak in music."

Or in my simpler statement, music can explain the unspoken things. Sometimes it express our emotions better, and it could shows who you are.